My First Date with Him : When we Expressed

So after the lot of efforts and planning we finally went on a date. Though we were still not in a relationship but now I would say it a Date as it was our first official outing, feeling was there and both of us could feel that affection and Love.

Read to know how it happened and how our relationship moved to a next level!


Making lot of plan, deciding date, iternary is our hobby :) so we finally planned to go on a date/dinner on friday after office. That day I put on my cutest outfit :) and This time we decided that we will directly meet on a decided place and will not go together as we wanted to avoid every possible problem that could have happened to spoil our plan.

We reached Barista where he ordered a cappuccino 1x2 .. at this time he got to know many things about my interests..my taste..my hobbies.. ME

We enjoyed our talks over coffee..we talked so much about out our families..our interest..office..office colleagues etc but nothing about our Feeling about each other.

After the coffee we went for a dinner at a Restaurant which was very much near to the barissta. I really loved that place, live Ghazals, dim light, amazing ambiance made my date more special.

We ordered some snacks and drinks, well it is funny but actually he ordered a soft drink and I ordered a vodka :)


After 1 drink down I saw his eyes and I could stopped myself.. I was just noticing his eyes.. I was lost somewhere deep inside his eyes.. That moment was the best moment of my life.

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My First Bike Ride With Him..

So the time came when we got chance to go out “alone”.. Well I cannot say it a date as we went to buy a birthday card for one of our colleague. It was my first bike ride with him :) :) .. I was excited for that lovely ride.

He was carrying a bag which he some how managed to put infront and gave me full back seat.. may be too make that ride more comfortable or to make it lil more cozy :) :) . First time I realized that its difficult to talk while sitting on a bike.. that traffic noise was very loud.. but still we were talking.. I came very close to him to make myself audible to him.

We rode across the noisy and shaddy road of the city..as there was no other alternate route.. but I was actually enjoying that ride..that traffic was not bothering me which actually do bother everyday. I was loving those winds which were touching him then me.. :) I was feeling his kiss through that wind.. I was just loving it..
 

The distance from our office to the Archies where we wanted to go was of 30 - 40 min (considering the rush hours), we reached around 7.15. We quickly choosed the birthdat card and at around 7.30 and we were done with the shopping . Now coth of us wanted to spend more time together but as usual we didnt say any thing.

But this time I finally got guts to ask him for a coffee :) her reply was obvious.. :) We went to barista spended quality time there.. We talked a lot.. he asked me about my intrest, hobby etc etc.. Awesome time we spent.. Though we were in barista but I found CCD punch line very true “ A lot can happen over a cup of coffee”. :)

We just seemed to connect with each other in every possible way. That was the first time when we were talking face to face so freely.. I was feeling awesome and I could sense his happiness and that spark in his eyes too.. I wanted to break that line of border between us.. I wanted to express a lot but..I couldnot.. I immersed myself in these new feelings

During that conversation, I noticed his eyes very deeply..and I found that very sweet and attractive, they were like deep blue sea.. so innocent..so truthful..so loving....in which any girl can swim like a water fairy.. This time I wanted to be that water fairy as he was my “Mr Him”... My Happiness was at peak .. I realized that life is so unpredictable. I never have expected that one day I will live for that person whom I said NO when first time he approached me.

He made me feel things which I had never felt before and I realized that he is a only one I would want and do want. I guess I first realized how much i felt for him from the day I felt that love in his eyes... after this each and every situation made me fall in love with him more an more...

Thanks Giving Day -- The Day we expressed something

So.. it was the thanks giving day and it was the first time when we actually expressed our feelings..but again indirectly

His workstation was maximum 10 steps away from mine.. it was the time when we use to think about each other all the time..

I was in office at my desk when he came.. he pulled the chair and sat close to me and said hi.. i was freezed for a second then he said "hi" and i turned my back .. I was so happy to see him.. I closed my eyes for a while , I was numb and nervous, it was like everything has paused , i realised he was staring at me , he was directly looking into my eyes , and me too, I tried to act calm by asking stupid questions from him like whats up? Are you done with your work etc etc..he replied patiently and said today is thanks giving and I would like to thankyou .. I said for what?? he was still looking into my eyes , I wanted that moment to stop.. I was lost in his eyes.. he thanked me for everything he could..for being his friend..for supporting him.. for the things I did for him and also for the thing I have not done for him and lot more.. he continued saying Thanks for like 7 minutes...

This was the first time when something happened in my stomach it felt like I was having butterflies in it ,i wanted to run away from the situation , i tried hard to utter out that i am alright.. :)

He finished his lines and he said bye to me as it was the time to leave from office.. I also said bye to him.. he moved back ..I suddenly came back to the reality from my dreamland..I stopped him and said.. Thankyou to u too..FOR MAKING Me SMILE.. well I wanted to say thankyou for coming into my life.. thankyou for making me realize what is love and lot more.. but I could not :( as may be it was too early for that or may be coz I was not still not sure about his feeling..or may b the reason was sumthing else..

He gave me really cute smile to me... he left but I was still feeling him..just trying to recall those moments again and again... I was smiling for no reason.. I was happy... I was in Love

Others Reaction on our closeness..

I was Enjoying the best time of my life with him and yes even our colleagues and friends started noticing that.. They were observing our closeness.. our activities and so our relationship. But we did not care about anyone.. We were so much involved in each other  and we were living every bit of life.. Something was truly special in our life.. I cannot call it a friendship as both of us knew that it wasnt frnship..our relationship was reached to the next step..


We used to lost in each others eyes, loving each other unconditionally.. We realized that looking into each others eyes can convey lot of feeling which are difficult to word.  Everyone was noticing that.. My friends started questioning me but I always said it just a frnship nothing more..

Friendship turing into Love.. Hidden Love!!

We finally began to go on coffee breaks alone in office..not because of the coffee craving but because we wanted to meet more often. Taking walk downstairs in lunch time, going on drive.. It was all a lot of fun and a great feeling too. I began to gather more emotions to him. He was so amazing. I loved the advice he used to give me and his postie attitude about almost everything. I felt positivity all around. I cherished every word of wisdom he gave to me. He was became my idol my mentor. He was so amazing.

I became attached to his favorite singer music, saw life in a different light, thought of love in a different way. I always kept him near my heart. He was just special. There was no way to describe my feelings for him, I just always thought he was an amazing friend. I never thought of our friendship becoming anything more, although at times I did want him to be my boyfriend. I thought he would be the perfect boyfriend, husband, father, everything. He was just amazing. But I never said anything. I was afraid it would change our friendship, which I loved dearly.The feeling that I had when I was with him was just indescribable. It felt like I just knew there was something more, there. And it felt like he knew it too.

I had always Andy him more than a friend, and it seemed like he did too. He always made eye contact with me, and he really listened to everything I had to say..

He was so amazing. I wanted to tell him how I felt but I could not, I was only trying to control my feeling as I knew that we have no future.. as I have made commitments with someone else and I can not take my words back. I wanted to tell him how much I cared about him and liked him. But oddly the word 'like' was always a hard word for me to say to him, and still to this day I wonder if it was because I always 'loved' him... never 'liked' him.

The Truth.. The Reality

One thing Which I have not disclosed about myself.. Though I still do not want to disclose it but without that I cannot do justice with the story..

One night during our chat we were talking about the marriages when he said if "mein tujhse hi shadi karlunga" ---I can marry you.. it was the indirect proposal.. That words gave me the reality check and I had to confess that "I am COMMITTED" and my roaka has already been done.. though it was the unofficial roaka but parents where aware about the relationship and they wanted me to get married soon. 

He didnot react on that.. as was having some hint about my relationship as everything was public on Facebook.. but he became upset..that I could sense.. I was also upset.. very upset.. Dont know why.. I had a boy friends.. Still.. It was wrong.. but still.. somthing was there.. which i was missing from so long

Well it didn't effect our friendship.. The long chats were On.. Till the time my room mate (who was gone for a holiday for 1 month) was not there I was talking freely with him but one day I got to know that my roommate is coming back this was not the very good news for me , as I knew it will kill my privacy and I wont feel confortable in my late night chats with him.

Anyways it was her room as well so I could not do anything. I started talking in lobby when she came back.. and my  chats with him continued...

We talked about everything..his interest..hobby.. passion.. likes.. dislikes .. believes.. my intrests and everything.. the talks were in limits.. he is kind of guy who never go beyond limits.. he never makes anyone uncomfortable.. he is just a gentle men.. We became friends.. Best friends

The Long Chats of Anu Maan

                                                                               So now the chat messaging turned into phone call chats.. Once he text me to know how I am where I replied I am fine and immediately I recieved the next message mentioning "I am having food..will call you shortly" .. well it was surprising for me.. after 15 mins I got his call . It was just the normal call and the chat duration was not too it was hardly for 5  or max 10 mins. 

He started calling more often after this and from here the messages turned into a long serious talks. that talks intimated us that something was going to happen..

Well till now I have not disclosed the hidden talent about him.. hez a excellent singer.. he used to dedicate song to me almost every night. There was nothing between us. We were F.R.I.E.N.D.S and only friends. We were enjoying knowing each other. 

We realized that we are so different from each other, he was very much social, simple , polite with everyone etc etc and I was anti social, rude to people i do not like, not at all simple.. We were so different but as science says "negative pole attracts" ,, This theory was very true in our case... 

We use to talk for hours and hours, sometimes the silent talks, sometimes the crazy talks.. we were enjoying that time..it was fantastic..memorable..lovable


continue "The Truth..The Reality"

First Texting on Phone.. I was at Home

I was at my hometown when I received his first messages.. It was after 3 days of dominoes party.. It was just the simple message wishing me and my family happy Govardhan. I replied back same to you

and the next day I got his message for choti diwali and then badi diwali.. After diwali I came back to Noida and we met.. in office ofcourse :)

We did not talk much may be we were not having any topic to talk about.. well thankfully there were common friends who used to go for evening break at 4 pm, he and I used to tag along with them so that we get some time to spend with each other.. we were too shy to go alone on breaks.

Though we used to be with group but we never cared about others we get so much involved with each other..those were the days i still miss alot . I wish i could rewind few pages of life.. I wish...

(continue) "The Long Mid Night Talks"

The Celebration....In Office

On the way to office two of one friends got a call from her Team Lead for not informing about your absence in lunch time.. well her team lead was lil weird so we did not care about what she was saying..

We reached office and saw that celebration was already started , everyone was involved in decorating their workstation. Since it was the team competition our team was waiting for us to come as all decoration material was with us.. (*me and he were in different teams).

We forgot everything and started decoration to win the competition.. Half an hour later HR called me and Mr D in a conference room where she gave us the authority to judge all the participants work and to declare the results.. so now me and Mr D were the jury members..

When the given time for decoration was over we went to each work station one by one and gave points on the basis of decided factors.

His workstation was simple but unique, he used only flowers to decorate but I found it beautiful. but as usual Mr D was adamant for not giving more point to his work as it was simple and what other people did was difficult and deserve more point.. well since this was the valid point I had to agree to him.

But at last I convinced Mr D was giving second prize to his work  :) :) :) so his team got the second prize.. he was happy.. they got a box of chocolate as a price.. He saved one for me..

He came to me when we were leaving from office and gave that chocolate and said "Hum Jeet Gaye" :)

They moment was very touching for me, there was a eye contact again.. some different feeling gain.. 

I left for my home town as it was diwali..He was in  my mind full time during that journey.. I thnk I was missing him.. but I was not sure.. may be because I spent lot of time with him that day.. It was all running in my mind when my phone ranged and I realized that the station where I have to get down is about to come.. Finally, the train jerked to a complete stop, I pulled my luggage down and I disembarked and walked a short distance to find my brother who was there to pick me from station  ....

 (continue) Texting on Phone.. The first Message

The Beginning ....

Well it all stated in Late October'12.. It was the time of diwali and we were excited to do workstation decoration to win the competition in our Office. But the news from management dissapointed all of us. We were under impression that the celebration will go on full day and there will be NO WORK... and The News was "We are allowed to do decoration and other fun part only in Lunch hours that is 1.30 to 2.30"

We all were very upset with this news and we decided that we will not participate in competition.. Unfortunately it was the last day of 2 of our friends so we thought of giving treat to them.. We decided to go to DOMINOSS with all friends. Since he was not in our group no one cared to invite him.

We were all set to move then we realized that we are short of one car so one of our friends "Mr D" (I never liked this men)  called him for the party so that we can get 1 more car to push our bumps in..

I dont know why but I was very happy when i got to know that he is also coming. We came out from office .. heading towards the car.. I wanted to sit in his car. Both the cars , his and Mr D's car was parked paralled to each other. I was very close to his car but Mr D shouted where are you going Madam you have to sit in my car .. he was very loud, I was not having any reason to say that I want to sit with Him (My him).. So I with my other friends sat in Mr D's car and other friends sat in  his car.

We finally reached at Dominoss..ofcourse it was our treat to our friends who were leaving the company on that day, all of us did contry but we did not ask him.. as he was our guest.. :) :) I am not sure what he was thinking about this.

We were waiting desperately for the pizza to come as we had limited time only..and we had to go back to office.. Mr D was flirting with me all the time but I did not care.. I was worried for him (my him) he was speaking very less, i thought the reason is he is new in our group.

And here I remembered the first time I experienced Love at First Sight.. He was sitting just infront of me.. I got the impression that someone is staring at me , I look around and only thing I could see was his eyes.. that was the first time we made eye contact.. and very soon I break the contact as I was too shy to continue it (or the reason was sumthing else)..  but that happened again..the eye contact.. I felt something every different deep inside.. I felt divine.. I felt being loved.. but I was not sure what is going on .. what is in his mind..What is in my mind.. We looked at each other again and again but for a very less duration.


We didnot realize that the time is over.. pizza was finish and it was the time to go back to office. This time I decided that whatsoever happens I will not sit in Mr D's car.. We were in parking lot and I saw him.. both of us exchanged words without speaking any word just by looking in each others eyes. and yes I did it.. I came straight to his car and sat at front seat. We are happy.. he was happy.. we were about to move when Mr D came and pulled me out by holding and pulling my hands tightly and asked me to sit in his car..  Mr D was doing that as a friend so again I could not revert back. But i felt bad because i knew that hez feeling bad too..

 (continue) --- "The Celebration in Office"